Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Could it be?

My apologies dear friends, it's been a while since I've written. As I mentioned in my last post, my jar of Vitamins was packed away for quite a while. Also, the conditions of my life haven't exactly been conducive to inspiration. Either I'm too busy to sit down and write out my thoughts, or I'm too bored and lazy to have thoughts in the first place (random song quote: "it's the double edged sword of being lazy and being bored"). 
Anyhow, this last weekend was particularly insane. I went to spend the weekend with my boyfriend for his high school graduation. Going into it I had some worries and fears. First: I'm socially inept, and this was going to be a very social affair. We went to about 7 parties, many of them for people I barely know. Second: I've never met his extended family, and they were all going to be there at once. Third: On Sunday night his parents were pushing him to go to "Project Graduation", an after-party of sorts sponsored by the school that runs from 11:00pm until 6:00am. I wasn't feeling too great about being left at night and joined in the morning by zombie-boyfriend operating on 3 hours of sleep. 
All of these issues are mostly driven by selfishness. In a nutshell, I was worried about being uncomfortable, making a bad impression, an being inconvenienced. But I'm human, and I couldn't help but to give in to them sometimes. In the end though, as always, I was thanking God for both his mercy and his blessings. It all worked out. I never felt too awkward, I got along great with his family, and he didn't go to the party because he was wiped out. 

The verse I want to look at today (now that I've gotten personal and told you a story about my own life for a while) is Jeremiah 29:11, "'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you; plans to give you hope and a future." 
First, I'm not sure if I've talked about this one before, but if I have, oh well.
This verse is repeated everywhere around graduation time. You can find it in cards. You can find it on little decorative plaques. Tons of gift items for grads feature this verse. Why? Because it's TRUE. And it's something that young people (like me) bouncing off to college with boldness and trepidation tend to forget. It's a mantra. Now that I think about it, it actually applies to the first part of this post. I worry because I forget that God has everything worked out in his plans. It also works for my boyfriend, who, when asked if he was excited, replied that he definitely was, but he was terrified to fall flat. I think every student and employee feels the same way. We're scared to fail. We're scared to disappoint. Partly because we don't want to disappoint the people who love us. But also because we know that there's consequences for failing. Our whole lives could fall apart after one mistake. It's awful to think about.
But.
God has a plan. We have a hope and a future.



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